all of it was just a dream 2017new post
After a long time , I got myself back into this blog page to share more stories, but this time lets focus on the positive and motivational side of life, "regrets i have a lot", but its too many to mention here I dont want anyone reading this to laugh at me because of my wrong choices in life. Let me tell you that its all worth it, I had become what I wished for on my previous blogs, my skills together with luck got me a car ,a farm and tons of cash which i blew carelessly saying "thats life my friend".
Life has taught me how to be mature and wise on every aspect the hard way and never expected that all of this good times will end. Based on my analysation I had become too kind to people that used to work for me , I became too confident that they are loyal until the end, because some of them are relatives and close friends. Not knowing that they are only there for me because of the benefits that I give to them . Sad but true so lets move on from that, God has sent my wife and my son to be on my side and to give me the strenght to go on again. As a retired boiler room worker ,I always miss the times when money is just a toy that makes me happy to spend and its so easy to earn . The free hotel accomodations ,early morning van rides with the crew and most of all the friendly competition on who gets the most deals and the biggest commision . Honestly I want to comeback and do it all again, but this time its totally different, Iam now afraid to loose my family when I go away to work, Im going to miss them everyday, I dont want them to worry if some trouble happens in work which is part of it since. I just realise that im no longer Alone now life has made me a Husband and a Father there are other options to live like a normal person. I admit it was very hard for me to adopt to the normal world compared to the happy go lucky lifestyle that I used to live before. During my depression I have realised that there is no one to help myself but me, thats why I have taught my self to know the basics on planting some vegetables, doing trial and error some of the seeds thats I plot have grown and bear fruits and some of them are wrecked by my roaming pigs . I was fulfilled to feed my family with foods that you have taken care off in your own garden. It was priceless to teach your son how to take care of the plants and feed the animals in the future he will be reminded by this when he is all grown up.
Life has taught me how to be mature and wise on every aspect the hard way and never expected that all of this good times will end. Based on my analysation I had become too kind to people that used to work for me , I became too confident that they are loyal until the end, because some of them are relatives and close friends. Not knowing that they are only there for me because of the benefits that I give to them . Sad but true so lets move on from that, God has sent my wife and my son to be on my side and to give me the strenght to go on again. As a retired boiler room worker ,I always miss the times when money is just a toy that makes me happy to spend and its so easy to earn . The free hotel accomodations ,early morning van rides with the crew and most of all the friendly competition on who gets the most deals and the biggest commision . Honestly I want to comeback and do it all again, but this time its totally different, Iam now afraid to loose my family when I go away to work, Im going to miss them everyday, I dont want them to worry if some trouble happens in work which is part of it since. I just realise that im no longer Alone now life has made me a Husband and a Father there are other options to live like a normal person. I admit it was very hard for me to adopt to the normal world compared to the happy go lucky lifestyle that I used to live before. During my depression I have realised that there is no one to help myself but me, thats why I have taught my self to know the basics on planting some vegetables, doing trial and error some of the seeds thats I plot have grown and bear fruits and some of them are wrecked by my roaming pigs . I was fulfilled to feed my family with foods that you have taken care off in your own garden. It was priceless to teach your son how to take care of the plants and feed the animals in the future he will be reminded by this when he is all grown up.
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